Trust

Ahh... Finally one decent post?
I don't feel like studying the stooooopid business communication now, which has like OH SO FREAKING MANY CHAPTERS. Yeah, procastinate study mode. This is what I get. Seeeeee Jasmine? Seeeee what I told you? How many times I told you NOT to procastinate???? You're just one hopeless human being.

I'm so going to have whatever disorders possible here.
Enough crapping.

I know that whoever's reading this blog, particularly, knows that I have... undoubtedly, many problems. And I never deny that I'm totally care-free.

Again, I understand that there are a number of you who wanted to help me.
And again, I really do understand how does it feel like when you wanted to help, but the person just somehow refuses to open up to you, and (sort of) rejected your help.
How do I know this? Simple.
Because I experienced the exact same thing.

In the end of the day, you will have to keep this in mind:
You've offered your help.
However, ultimately the person just does not want to tell or share anything with you.
Therefore, you will just have to let it be, and forget it.
Entirely, or not entirely, that one depends on your own perspective.
The seriousness of the matter perhaps? Or the relationship you share with the person?

No matter how serious the matter is, or how worried you are towards that person... You can't do anything if he/she just declines your aid directly or indirectly.
I'm not telling you to just forget it and let the person die or something...
Just stay behind their backs (and no, not back stabbing, morons =,="), just in case they fall.

I really understand how frustrating it is when you wanted to help, but you just simply don't know what you can do to make things better.
The feeling sucks.
But ask yourself, does this make anything better?
No.
So don't burden yourself.
Don't take others' burden and make it yours.
In reality, you will just have to take care of your own business and manage it well.
Why?
After all, it's your life you're leading. Not others' lives.

I'm sorry that I make you guys worry so much about me.
I have to admit yeah I'm pretty much to the point of the edge of my... mental strength most of the times nowadays.
Thank you for offering unconditional love, and helping hands to me.
I'm thankful to know that help is always offered from you guys.
Really, thank you.

And I know how many times you guys tell me the exact same thing:
Hey... Share me your problems okay?
I really wanted to help you.
Remember to look for me when you need someone ya?
Etc etc...

Not that I don't trust you guys.
However I believe some of the things are meant to be kept to myself.
I also believe that some of the things are just too dark to be exposed.
And another thing, you might not be the perfect platform for me to stop my ship.
(Okay weird metaphore, I know.)

Don't worry too much about me~
It won't do you any good anyway.
I don't want my own burden to be your burden.

Again, thank you guys for offering me help.
And thank you for being there whenever I need someone.

And... no I'm not being emo while typing this post. LOL.
I'm really really calm.
Except the fact that I'm stressed for the stoopid subject lol.
Haha~

-Jas-