Sick is fun.

Take the title as a sarcasm please.
You can't possibly think that being sick is a fun thing, right?

Oh well.
My entire long holiday is filled with one action: being sick.
And I'm not even trying to be sarcasm here. LOL.

*sigh*
First is the dizziness, then I think it somehow probably maybe gone to the very back of my head now. Next, followed by fever and sore throat right after the trip with my friends.

Again, I had so many things that ran through my mind for these few days accompanied by my very close friend fever, and tonsils that were clearly-not-getting-better-and-end-up-swollen-instead. *cough* Oh yeah, that was what my doctor said when I visited her (again for the third time this month; apparently the doc I visited on Sunday was an Indian guy, whom I barely can understand his Inglish and shot me a seriously weird question right before I leave the room: "Are you married?" MIND YOU. That doc is OLD alright.), she was like: aiyoh, what happen to you this time? I seriously want to find a hole and just hide in there. LOL.

The even funnier thing is when she asked if I have any sore throat, I was like: YES and it has definitely gotten worse. Then I went: AAAAHHHHH. Then she's like: WHOA. Your throat's already swollen! My reaction on the outside: Uh-huh... My reaction on the inside: *sweat drops*.

Uh. I think I got off the track again.
So... anyway, as I said the sickness for these few days (as well as the one before this during the holidays) triggered some of my old alarms. In fact, they were rather old ones that I burried them somewhere deep inside that I sorta kinda ignored and forgot them. And believe me... keeping those alarms away, were good for my well being.

Here it comes again. The old alarms.
It taunted me again and again this holidays, the anxiety that I had towards every outing that I anticipate. Why? Because, it appears to be a normal thing for me (a few years back) to actually "get sick" right on the day that I am anticipating to have fun. To make it easier to understand, it's similar to the fear of something bad will happen that causes me unable to get out and have fun as planned.

Apparently, it has been happening quite a few times in this short period of holidays. And definitely woke up the alarms that I had shut away for years. Oh yeah. Great huh? But no worries, I am somehow getting myself to be in control on that.

This is by far the most disorganized holidays that I have ever had. I normally finish up my holiday's to-do list in at most within two weeks. The holidays have already been like around one month, and I still haven't finish the things that are needed to be done. How lame is that?!

Alright.
Apparently the fever had burnt the things I wanted to rant about.
LOL.

*sigh*

Oh. Right.
How can this not be important eh?
The most recent and biggest controversy going on in the Kpop industry.

To make matters short, sweet and simple,
I have faith in you.

And come on, Mr. LSM... is this how you treat your company's biggest assets? Now I realize why the industry loves to take in very young talents. Because their minds are still very innocent back then, and their spirits were so high that were used by the company's benefits. (OMG I can't believe I auditioned for that company before. Zzzzz.)

How sad is that?
How can you do that to them after all these years of profit they earn not only for themselves, but ultimately for the company?

To be extremely frank, I don't mind them disbanding at this point.
Because if they really do disband, the biggest lost is not us fans, or even the boys, but the company. Oh I'll be clapping and popping confettis by then! HAHA. (Hey, just the rumours were enough to bring the company's stocks on a downhill, think about it.)
If they didn't get the rights they should have from the company, go on, disband or at least find a better company that loves you for not only the benefits but you as a human.

Then again, I believe that
all five will remain one for the longest time.

-Jas-