Tough Monday.

I used hear how people complain about how bad Monday is, or Monday blues - somehow I guess I never really understand the "Monday pain" others would describe. I only remember the reason why I hated Mondays was because I had some kind of fear going to school and having to face the first day of the week all over again. And definitely it's not something nice to feel.

I didn't really experience the whole "Monday-phobia" thing ever since I got into high school. It all came back ever since I stepped my foot into the corporate world - or more like ever since I got into the work force. Not anything pleasant to greet for its comeback, seriously.

It makes me query a lot - what the hell motivates people to go to work everyday? Money may be one for the factors, but not a strong enough one. Satisfaction maybe? I certainly don't really feel that kind of "oomph" or send of achievement in work. Okay maybe just a little bit of it. Other than that it's like waiting for trouble to hit me on the head, and get fired sooner or later. *sigh*

Yes today had been a tough day. Everyday is a tough day working at where I'm working anyway... Everybody's pushing you about various things. I'm literally everyone's middle person - which is a position I really really dislike. Come on people - I don't freaking owe you any shit. So treat me nicely dammit..

I've been blamed over all sorts of things. Fine. I've been telling myself many times - I only have one brain and two hands, and I can only do this much. And I did try my best to do everything, though not at it's best coz it's just too many!!

I kept reminding myself that - hey, no matter how others treat you, you're still a jewel in other people's hearts who care about you. No matter what those people freaking say or do to you - your definitely worth more than what you're being perceived! *egocentrism alert, Jasmine!*

They say when you face a time where you think it's a disastrous moment, ask yourself:"would it matter after 5 years?" hmmmmm... It's an experience to look back into, but it won't matter by then already. Why? It's not my initial goal in life, but to merely experience the process.

There you go Jasmine. You'll be able to pull through this! =)

-Jas-