Uncertainty.
It's near end of my 1st semester for my PgDip year, and today marks the first day of June. How time flies so fast, is kind of scary.
So what am I up to now?
Well, good morning. I woke up around almost half an hour ago, and had my breakfast. Surfed around facebook - and have zero progress on my essays, 2 due-ing on Thursday & Friday each. One more essay supposedly to due on following Monday; yet thankfully the lecturer decided to postpone the due date for us *hallelujah thank God*.
Yeap, I am feeling kind of panicky right now. Reason being, these two essays (or rather 1 essay, one research proposal) are not really within my area of better understanding throughout the 4 courses I took. And yes, I am feeling worried, and reluctant to begin with my work - which I admit, does not contribute to my current condition.
What is it that I'm afraid of?
Well, I'm afraid of... not able to finish my essays in time. Another side of the reason is, I'm afraid that I might end up with literal crap in both of my assignments. Fear fear fear, yeap, that's pretty much the bigger piece of my pie.
Then again... why am I scared? Yes, I'm scared that I won't be able to get a good average grade. Then again, if I don't start and do something - that won't make any difference right?
I really should push the fear aside for a while... and start on SOMETHING.
Wish me luck.
-Jas-
So what am I up to now?
Well, good morning. I woke up around almost half an hour ago, and had my breakfast. Surfed around facebook - and have zero progress on my essays, 2 due-ing on Thursday & Friday each. One more essay supposedly to due on following Monday; yet thankfully the lecturer decided to postpone the due date for us *hallelujah thank God*.
Yeap, I am feeling kind of panicky right now. Reason being, these two essays (or rather 1 essay, one research proposal) are not really within my area of better understanding throughout the 4 courses I took. And yes, I am feeling worried, and reluctant to begin with my work - which I admit, does not contribute to my current condition.
What is it that I'm afraid of?
Well, I'm afraid of... not able to finish my essays in time. Another side of the reason is, I'm afraid that I might end up with literal crap in both of my assignments. Fear fear fear, yeap, that's pretty much the bigger piece of my pie.
Then again... why am I scared? Yes, I'm scared that I won't be able to get a good average grade. Then again, if I don't start and do something - that won't make any difference right?
I really should push the fear aside for a while... and start on SOMETHING.
Wish me luck.
-Jas-
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