Motivation. Inspiration.

Where are you?
I have lost both of you and miss you dearly, especially this year.

Sometimes I sit here and think about my worries. 
I thought to myself - is psychology not that interesting to me anymore?

I wonder, how come I feel so lacking in motivation to work? What is it that I am hesitating so much?
At the same time, I think to myself, why do I not seem to have questions around human's thoughts, actions and behaviors - that I struggled so much about coming up with a topic I want to research more about in my essays/ research proposals?

What is wrong with me?

I'm not sure if it's because I got too overwhelmed with new ways of learning and also new radical perspectives towards the issues surrounding psychology. It got to a point that I am starting to ask myself - why are these people researching about people so much, and telling us how sad/ negative the world seems? Arguments after arguments, perspectives after perspectives - everything seemed so complicated that I start to ask: are we trying to look for the truth? Or just simply creating even more confusing lens to look at the issue?

Psychology. You are inspiring. At the same time, you are such an abstract phenomena to be learned and understood.

Gotta look into my life history and see what are the interpersonal and intergroup relationships questions that I am dying to know more about implicitly and explicitly. Ideas please come to me really really soon... :'(

-Jas-