Heartaches. Heartbreaks.
Wow... It's been like MONTHS since I've posted a topic in this blog. Gosh I feel soooo sorry for my honey, bloggie~ *huggies bloggie* I missed you from time to time neh!! But it's just difficult to get myself to work these days... Talking about lacking of self-discipline... *cough* Don't get my title wrongly.
Haha... Maybe those who saw this title will have sparks in their eyes and thought: OOOHHHHHHH... She broke up with her boyfriend or something?? HECK NO. I'm still a happy single~ Haha! Although I kind of feel lonely at times~ LOL~ Lucky there are human beings labeled as FRIENDS. Or else, my world will be even more dull... *hugs all my besties and pals*
Oh, this is going to be A LONG POST. I don't know how far will this go, but I had a feeling that this is gonna be one heck of a long post. LOL~ (As you can see, the way I present myself into words is different compared than previous posts... I think~ xD)
Heartaches. Heartbreaks... What made me come of with this title eh? At first I wanted to put "live life to the fullest...?", but somehow the H.H. title came to me like... this morning. *shrugs* But yeah, that's what I'm feeling at the moment. (You'll probably find it rather riddiculus if you continue to read on. I've given you my warning!!!) So probably you're asking... What I've been up to these days that I literally abandoned my bloggie? Well, to tell you the truth, I've been seriously obssessed with this Korean boyband and only spazzing and drooling around them took like... 2/3 of my 24 hours?? Haha... Although I agree it's somewhat a waste of time, I had learned much from them. They LITERALLY made me love them. And yes, I love em. Not because of their appearance and all (so, okay part of it, yes.), but I learned that their personality are somethings that... are difficult to find in today's society and they are just... too good to be true? They don't seem like they're acting to me. If you were to see all those videos, interviews and stuff, their characters are consistantly shown and they grew stronger and more mature. If they acted all of those out, I gotta say they are WAY TOO GOOD TO BE ACTORS! I mean hello, who the hell can act like for YEARS being the SAME OLD THING?!?! *fangirl moment*
Okay so... put that aside. LOL. Recently there's been too many heart throbbing moments for, me. From the people that I love, to the people that I don't know but learnt their pressense from others, and to those I admire(yes yes I'm talking about the idols about the last point).
-the people that I love-
I find it rather frustrating when... I am the middle person between two persons or parties. It's simply because I get to see the point of views from both sides and know what they had in similarities and differences and so and so forth that causes the problems between them. It's even more frustrating when I learnt that... It's just impossible to get people to talk when I know that one side is not open enough to accept the fact, and another side is just... blind. It hurts the depth of my heart and felt a rush of rage within me when I came to know that people just have to talk and open up and TALK... However, things might get worse in that way as well. Another thing is... I discovered that people nowadays are so... not easy to spill their hearts out. That is one thing that troubles me. Why? I tend to spill my emotions out, A LOT. And I'm sure you, who are reading this agree with me. How does it troubles me? I don't know... Probably it's because I don't get used to the difference compared to my old life.
-the people that I don't know but learnt their pressense from others-
This is another heart wrecking... thing. Life is indeed short. Everyone's been saying and telling everybody else: "LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!" or "LIFE IS SHORT!", but how many exactly live their life to the fullest and learned that time is precious? I know I did not. Yes I am blaming myself, and still striving REALLY HARD to get myself to work and all. I find this rather... sinister?? LOL I can't find a word to use, and probably that ain't a right word. But anyway, "life is short" has become a... erm... dang what the hell is the word. Okay... it has became a certain quote for human beings to take advantage in their daily lives. LOL I think those who are reading this will be having a hell lot of question marks all over their heads. Nevermind me. =.=
Anyway, I always knew that life is never long, and yes life is never ever predictable. I couldn't tell that when will I die, or when will the person sitting right next to me (apparently there's no one sitting beside me. If there is... I'll seriously freak out in the broad daylight because I'm alone in the house at the moment!) die. People kept telling me cherish what and who you have in life, yet I find it really difficult to take it in action. Don't you think so?
-to those I admire-
Yes this is "dedicated" to the boys that all the girls are crazy over and wants them to be their boyfriends and husbands desperately. (Yeah go on and laugh. And yeah I admit I'm one of those crazy girls.) I really admired their spirit... They are appreciating every second of their fame and the main thing is... THEY LOVE THEIR WORK. I would say... the word "love" is not enough to describe their passion towards their career. They gave me heartaches!!! Not because that they have girlfriends or anything like that, but... well, mainly health wise. I understand how human being wanted to fulfill others and will feel bad if they didn't do their best or... something like that, but I do think everyone of us should consider those who love us. They might feel even more hurt when they discover we hurt ourselves to fulfill their wishes and dreams. And THAT is what the boys are doing. I'm seriously gonna slap you boys. LOL. Especially the leader who's injured last night. Gosh... YAH!!!!! I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU LOVED TO DANCE BUT IF YOU DON'T REST YOU MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO DANCE FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE, UNDERSTAND?!?!? *fangirl moment* Yeah I'm pretty emo, and I know you find me riddiculus, LOL. If you're a fan to someone, I'm sure you'll understand what kind of stage I'm going through. And mind me another thing, I'm having a woman's... erm... difficulty (?) at the moment so... Yeah.
*sighs*
This post is... so... vague in a way.
-Jas-
Haha... Maybe those who saw this title will have sparks in their eyes and thought: OOOHHHHHHH... She broke up with her boyfriend or something?? HECK NO. I'm still a happy single~ Haha! Although I kind of feel lonely at times~ LOL~ Lucky there are human beings labeled as FRIENDS. Or else, my world will be even more dull... *hugs all my besties and pals*
Oh, this is going to be A LONG POST. I don't know how far will this go, but I had a feeling that this is gonna be one heck of a long post. LOL~ (As you can see, the way I present myself into words is different compared than previous posts... I think~ xD)
Heartaches. Heartbreaks... What made me come of with this title eh? At first I wanted to put "live life to the fullest...?", but somehow the H.H. title came to me like... this morning. *shrugs* But yeah, that's what I'm feeling at the moment. (You'll probably find it rather riddiculus if you continue to read on. I've given you my warning!!!) So probably you're asking... What I've been up to these days that I literally abandoned my bloggie? Well, to tell you the truth, I've been seriously obssessed with this Korean boyband and only spazzing and drooling around them took like... 2/3 of my 24 hours?? Haha... Although I agree it's somewhat a waste of time, I had learned much from them. They LITERALLY made me love them. And yes, I love em. Not because of their appearance and all (so, okay part of it, yes.), but I learned that their personality are somethings that... are difficult to find in today's society and they are just... too good to be true? They don't seem like they're acting to me. If you were to see all those videos, interviews and stuff, their characters are consistantly shown and they grew stronger and more mature. If they acted all of those out, I gotta say they are WAY TOO GOOD TO BE ACTORS! I mean hello, who the hell can act like for YEARS being the SAME OLD THING?!?! *fangirl moment*
Okay so... put that aside. LOL. Recently there's been too many heart throbbing moments for, me. From the people that I love, to the people that I don't know but learnt their pressense from others, and to those I admire(yes yes I'm talking about the idols about the last point).
-the people that I love-
I find it rather frustrating when... I am the middle person between two persons or parties. It's simply because I get to see the point of views from both sides and know what they had in similarities and differences and so and so forth that causes the problems between them. It's even more frustrating when I learnt that... It's just impossible to get people to talk when I know that one side is not open enough to accept the fact, and another side is just... blind. It hurts the depth of my heart and felt a rush of rage within me when I came to know that people just have to talk and open up and TALK... However, things might get worse in that way as well. Another thing is... I discovered that people nowadays are so... not easy to spill their hearts out. That is one thing that troubles me. Why? I tend to spill my emotions out, A LOT. And I'm sure you, who are reading this agree with me. How does it troubles me? I don't know... Probably it's because I don't get used to the difference compared to my old life.
-the people that I don't know but learnt their pressense from others-
This is another heart wrecking... thing. Life is indeed short. Everyone's been saying and telling everybody else: "LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!" or "LIFE IS SHORT!", but how many exactly live their life to the fullest and learned that time is precious? I know I did not. Yes I am blaming myself, and still striving REALLY HARD to get myself to work and all. I find this rather... sinister?? LOL I can't find a word to use, and probably that ain't a right word. But anyway, "life is short" has become a... erm... dang what the hell is the word. Okay... it has became a certain quote for human beings to take advantage in their daily lives. LOL I think those who are reading this will be having a hell lot of question marks all over their heads. Nevermind me. =.=
Anyway, I always knew that life is never long, and yes life is never ever predictable. I couldn't tell that when will I die, or when will the person sitting right next to me (apparently there's no one sitting beside me. If there is... I'll seriously freak out in the broad daylight because I'm alone in the house at the moment!) die. People kept telling me cherish what and who you have in life, yet I find it really difficult to take it in action. Don't you think so?
-to those I admire-
Yes this is "dedicated" to the boys that all the girls are crazy over and wants them to be their boyfriends and husbands desperately. (Yeah go on and laugh. And yeah I admit I'm one of those crazy girls.) I really admired their spirit... They are appreciating every second of their fame and the main thing is... THEY LOVE THEIR WORK. I would say... the word "love" is not enough to describe their passion towards their career. They gave me heartaches!!! Not because that they have girlfriends or anything like that, but... well, mainly health wise. I understand how human being wanted to fulfill others and will feel bad if they didn't do their best or... something like that, but I do think everyone of us should consider those who love us. They might feel even more hurt when they discover we hurt ourselves to fulfill their wishes and dreams. And THAT is what the boys are doing. I'm seriously gonna slap you boys. LOL. Especially the leader who's injured last night. Gosh... YAH!!!!! I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU LOVED TO DANCE BUT IF YOU DON'T REST YOU MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO DANCE FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE, UNDERSTAND?!?!? *fangirl moment* Yeah I'm pretty emo, and I know you find me riddiculus, LOL. If you're a fan to someone, I'm sure you'll understand what kind of stage I'm going through. And mind me another thing, I'm having a woman's... erm... difficulty (?) at the moment so... Yeah.
*sighs*
This post is... so... vague in a way.
-Jas-
Comments
As I can see you hit right on the mark and are exactly as you said you are. You sure were very "high" when the post was being written. =_=
So THAT was why you were being so cra... no, so weird in my chatterbox.
-_-"
geez... *laughs*
i'm actually quite serious when i'm writting this post, you know?? *squints eyes*
but i'll continue to spam ur chatterbox from time to time...
*evil cackles* xD
-Jas-
Can't help u much, since we're all emo-ing, so may us dears stand by each other n survive thru this. Cheers!!
ps:/ poor jaejong's not mentioned in this blog. His injuries might not b S seriously s uknow, but stil......... haha.
ykm aka honey *muahahaha!!!!
haha! so yeah, let's get through this!! xD
*cheers*