Obsession...?
Hmm... Currently, I'm feeling soooo tired. =__= I just came back from University, LOL.
And my right ear is being gay... Gah... Fine fine fine, lemme just go deaf and cut all the lovely melodies from my world.
I've been a really good girl, for real!
Yes I do listen to MP3, but I never turn on the volume too loudly until people meters away from my could hear what song I'm listening to. (I turn on like.. AT MOST volume 10 out of 30 of my MP3.)
I don't listen to it everyday.
The LONGEST time I listen to it is for two hours straight, MAXIMUM LENGTH.
Been sooo stressed out with the weird feeling of me ear, ended up to spend 15 bucks to do what? Yes pay a visit to this cute female doctor, and she took out A SHORT HAIR from my right ear. And also for ear droplet thingy, because there's still.. a short one (hair) in there near to my eardrums... LOL.
Seriously cute, the doctor I meant~ Haha~~ She's like looking into both of my ears and said: oh dear, you ears are sooo clean and beautiful (??)!! Your ear drums are in perfect conditiont too! Such a bubbly doctor~ if all doctors are THAT nice, I wouldn't be scared. LOL. I HATE DOCTORS, in general. Heh. Some doctors sooo want to send me to the operation room and get my tonsils off.. And I was only eight years old back then! Freaked the hell out of me.
Oh well, at least the weird feeling of my right ear's.. sort of gone, but now comes the wheeeeee sound == Which yes happened to be before, once~ DON'T CARE LAH! *rage*
Anyway, LOL I'm way off topic. ==
For my previous literature review, some of you might or might not know what topic I did.
The topic I chose was "idolization among adolescents and young adults". *grins* Probably some of you know why I chose this topic eh? I'm not gonna go into details about that~ ^^
However... Ok if you're not up for a WAKE UP CALL for whatever idol obsession you have... You might consider to not continue reading.
Anyhoo... Recently I came to realize something...
What's the point of admiring, being all obsessive towards a person anyway?
Especially if the person is someone who you know you'll never reach to, someone who will not even know you exist(ed) in this world?
After all... they are no different than any of us in the world.
They are human beings too.
Yes I'm talking about idols and such, to be.. rather exact.
Sometimes, I think its so silly of me being all crazy and obsessive towards idols. And sometimes I even think that, I am sort of too old for all these. Haha~
Honestly speaking, I did wasted a lot of my time looking for their pictures, news, songs, videos... etc etc etc, ANYTHING that are related to them.
Not only that, well probably I have to thank them for this... Because them, they made me join forums (good side: get to know more, new people from different places who are SO different from me), made me start being super obsessive with Photoshopping (good side: I've obtained a skill!), and the silliest thing of all... post my own stories AND singing clips online.
*go on and laugh at me~ LOL~*
Yes, I do think its pointless saving their pictures, watching their videos... AND feeling all happy for their success and such... (Not to mention squealing like a weird creature whenever there's anything hawt/pervie that I see) After all, all of those does not have any sort of linkage to ME.
I did tell myself these:
Jasmine, you're wasting all your precious time (and money, for the concert ticket... Don't ask me how much it cost, LOL) for people who will never ever know you in your or their lives.
Jasmine, you're being too addictive to them now.
Jasmine, stop dreaming for the impossible.
Jasmine, its time to face the reality and snap out of it!
Yes, believe it or not, I did tell myself about these time to time... Or at least, sometimes, when I know it's just not the time to stare at the PC and drool all over the place because of them. *yes yes go on. LAUGH.*
However, I came to another realization.
Besides the fact that I admire them for their talents, attitudes, determination and such... There are something else that just make me feel that its worth staying as the way it is (okay, I need to pull back a little bit-lah~).
They make me forget my worries, temporarily.
They make me happy whenever no one can cheer me up.
They make me feel all hyped up when I'm feeling down. (and this is just superbly hyped up to the point of... uhm... well it's scary, to be frank. HAHA!)
They make me feel that nothing's impossible, not until you tried and failed miserably.
They are just... worth it.
(These are just plain cheekish eh? haha~)
For that, I told myself, I will cherish for whatever they've brought me.
Even though they don't know me,
even though they don't know that I even exist(ed) in this world...
Yup! I'm sticking to this kind of feeling I have.
Of course I know this:
I have to control and not let it go off hands.
Finally, I'll just have to say thank you to them.
They made me realize many things~
And I appreciate that.
-Jas-
And my right ear is being gay... Gah... Fine fine fine, lemme just go deaf and cut all the lovely melodies from my world.
I've been a really good girl, for real!
Yes I do listen to MP3, but I never turn on the volume too loudly until people meters away from my could hear what song I'm listening to. (I turn on like.. AT MOST volume 10 out of 30 of my MP3.)
I don't listen to it everyday.
The LONGEST time I listen to it is for two hours straight, MAXIMUM LENGTH.
Been sooo stressed out with the weird feeling of me ear, ended up to spend 15 bucks to do what? Yes pay a visit to this cute female doctor, and she took out A SHORT HAIR from my right ear. And also for ear droplet thingy, because there's still.. a short one (hair) in there near to my eardrums... LOL.
Seriously cute, the doctor I meant~ Haha~~ She's like looking into both of my ears and said: oh dear, you ears are sooo clean and beautiful (??)!! Your ear drums are in perfect conditiont too! Such a bubbly doctor~ if all doctors are THAT nice, I wouldn't be scared. LOL. I HATE DOCTORS, in general. Heh. Some doctors sooo want to send me to the operation room and get my tonsils off.. And I was only eight years old back then! Freaked the hell out of me.
Oh well, at least the weird feeling of my right ear's.. sort of gone, but now comes the wheeeeee sound == Which yes happened to be before, once~ DON'T CARE LAH! *rage*
Anyway, LOL I'm way off topic. ==
For my previous literature review, some of you might or might not know what topic I did.
The topic I chose was "idolization among adolescents and young adults". *grins* Probably some of you know why I chose this topic eh? I'm not gonna go into details about that~ ^^
However... Ok if you're not up for a WAKE UP CALL for whatever idol obsession you have... You might consider to not continue reading.
Anyhoo... Recently I came to realize something...
What's the point of admiring, being all obsessive towards a person anyway?
Especially if the person is someone who you know you'll never reach to, someone who will not even know you exist(ed) in this world?
After all... they are no different than any of us in the world.
They are human beings too.
Yes I'm talking about idols and such, to be.. rather exact.
Sometimes, I think its so silly of me being all crazy and obsessive towards idols. And sometimes I even think that, I am sort of too old for all these. Haha~
Honestly speaking, I did wasted a lot of my time looking for their pictures, news, songs, videos... etc etc etc, ANYTHING that are related to them.
Not only that, well probably I have to thank them for this... Because them, they made me join forums (good side: get to know more, new people from different places who are SO different from me), made me start being super obsessive with Photoshopping (good side: I've obtained a skill!), and the silliest thing of all... post my own stories AND singing clips online.
*go on and laugh at me~ LOL~*
Yes, I do think its pointless saving their pictures, watching their videos... AND feeling all happy for their success and such... (Not to mention squealing like a weird creature whenever there's anything hawt/pervie that I see) After all, all of those does not have any sort of linkage to ME.
I did tell myself these:
Jasmine, you're wasting all your precious time (and money, for the concert ticket... Don't ask me how much it cost, LOL) for people who will never ever know you in your or their lives.
Jasmine, you're being too addictive to them now.
Jasmine, stop dreaming for the impossible.
Jasmine, its time to face the reality and snap out of it!
Yes, believe it or not, I did tell myself about these time to time... Or at least, sometimes, when I know it's just not the time to stare at the PC and drool all over the place because of them. *yes yes go on. LAUGH.*
However, I came to another realization.
Besides the fact that I admire them for their talents, attitudes, determination and such... There are something else that just make me feel that its worth staying as the way it is (okay, I need to pull back a little bit-lah~).
They make me forget my worries, temporarily.
They make me happy whenever no one can cheer me up.
They make me feel all hyped up when I'm feeling down. (and this is just superbly hyped up to the point of... uhm... well it's scary, to be frank. HAHA!)
They make me feel that nothing's impossible, not until you tried and failed miserably.
They are just... worth it.
(These are just plain cheekish eh? haha~)
For that, I told myself, I will cherish for whatever they've brought me.
Even though they don't know me,
even though they don't know that I even exist(ed) in this world...
Yup! I'm sticking to this kind of feeling I have.
Of course I know this:
I have to control and not let it go off hands.
Finally, I'll just have to say thank you to them.
They made me realize many things~
And I appreciate that.
-Jas-
Comments
All those moments they made us feel all hyped up, all the fan-girl moments which is absurd in other's eyes, all the insane moments where we juz stare at the screen and scream~~~
It might not make sense at all, not even 2 myself, but 1 thing 4 sure. I'll never regret going mad all over them, and those fan moments would definitely something that I'll look back and have a smile on my face. ^^
May DBSK live forever~~~~~~~
And let the fan obsession lasts~ :P
*cheers
-ykm