this is life.

The Influence of Birth Order My Result: Only child because of your achievement People who stand out as only children due to their achievements usually received good grades in school or felt afraid of disappointing their parents if their grades weren't high. As adults they probably believe that educational success and career advancement are important in life. In fact, in comparison to their peers, they're likely to attain higher educational levels and occupy more prestigious positions in the workplace. Their tendency to be efficient and open to constructive criticism are qualities that contribute to their success in life. Odds are that they are naturally competitive and like to compare their abilities to others. For this reason, they are likely to enjoy team sports. Because achieving their goals has been ingrained in them, they are prone to success; they excel at the things they set their hearts on, ranging from playing a musical instrument to being intellectuals. What are you? ...

How Bright Is Your Aura? My Result: Orange People who have Orange as the brightest color of their aura are good at tuning in to the feelings of others and treating them with sensitivity, and they expect others to reciprocate. Their trust in their emotional inner guide may draw them to work that is more deeply fulfilling, as opposed to work that just provides a paycheck. In their love lives, they're emotionally expressive. They may show their affection most often by sharing how they feel and asking their partners to do the same. They have an above-average ability to identify and express their feelings, particularly to romantic partners. Their advanced ability to express feelings prevents energy from getting stuck in this layer of their aura, which can help them avoid a variety of emotional and physical ailments. What are you? http://web.tickle.com/jumpto?test=auraogt&c=50652 Oh yeaaaahhhh I'm such a GREAT procastinator~ :D I get easily addicted to personality tests. LOL! Her...

Tickle's Original Inkblot Test My Result: Peace You have a deeply-rooted desire to make peace in the world. Whether through subtle interactions with loved ones, or through getting involved in social causes, it is important to you to be able to influence the world in a positive way. You have a deep respect for humankind. You care about the future of the world, even beyond your own involvement in it, and you inspire others to feel the same way. Your innate drive toward peace guides you in daily life towards decisions that are respectful toward yourself and others. Your psyche is very rich; the more you learn about it, the more you will understand who you really are. What are you? http://web.tickle.com/jumpto?test=inkblotogt&c=50652 Wheee~~ I saw this at michellious 's bloggie~ xD and.. yesh, I got INTERESTED! I was surprised with the results though... Me? PEACE???? *lmao-ing* anyhoo, HERE is the full length report of my results. Personally, I had fun doing the test. Although ...

... I'm just going for it. As I've always said, life is short, short, short... SHORT . I'm very aware, I've never done anything in order to fill that statement in. Life is not always full with opportunities. I'm trying to grab any of them that are offered, as well as trying hard to push myself making some opportunities to myself. I have no idea if I can handle these... However, no harm trying, right? I didn't want to regret in the future. There are no second chances in life. There is no turning back in time. I want to try... Try to do things that when I look back in the future, and tell myself: "Wow... I actually did those? I'm amazed with myself." I realized... there's just no point holding myself back because of words. In the end, it's my life. Say whatever things you want to me. Say that I'm irrespectful, irresponsible, or whatever to me. I'm going for it. -Jas-

I was hooked with DBSK/TVXQ/THSK for a couple of years now. And yes, undoubtedly, their songs hooked me to the depths of my heart. DBSK's "Eternal" is a japanese song, sang by themselves. It never failed to give me this... special warm yet sad feeling to me no matter how many times I listen to it. However, yesterday when I was on my way to University, I plugged in my earphones. My MP3 decided to shuffle on that song... the feeling was even deeper than ever. Something hit me. I didn't know what was it... Nonetheless... it felt good. Very good. It touched me. It was a mixture of... sadness and gladness. Somehow its like... I got connected with them througout the song. For once I realy understand, what they're striving for. Honestly... I'm happy for them. For whatever they've done to themselves, and the impact they gave me. Not just the crazy fangirling moments... But many other meaningful things that they've shown and I've learnt and realized. If any...

Ohhh yessssss my dear Michelle at the other side of the country, who used to be my backyard pal / neighbour, who used to go to school together with me AND go back home with me ever since you got into elementary school, who went to swimming classes with me... YEAH, YOU! Haha~~ Well I really don't have much to say... Remember those crazy days when I was your backyard neighbour? Where I had to climb across the fence (with help from my dad AND your dad xD) in order to go to your house? Remember there's once I went to your place for almost one whole day, and I even took bath there AND wear your clothes? Remember when we had to go for swimming classes early in the morning and were freeeeezing in the swimming pool? OH! And we always go to the club's swimming pool, along with Vanessa and Joanne! :D Remember I went to your grandparent's place during... I think its your birthday...? Haha LOL! And and and I would always call you (I still remember your house number... LOL. IT'S...

There's this little bird... It always comes and visit me when I'm studying by the window side in my room. It makes me wonder... Could it be you? You came to give me some encouragement? Hmm... I'd rather you come and say "hey, keep up the hard work" in my dreams, ya know... The pain you gave me still remains. It does. And I'm sure, it remains in everyone else invovled. Little bird, Do come and visit more often, all right? Even though whenever I see you, it triggers the sorrow within me... Even though I got teary whenever I see you standing right outside my window, peeping, looking at me... Yet, I smile, genuinely. Sorry that I actually scared you the other day. Haha... *laughs hard* Do come back and visit more often okay? -Jas-

I cried, last night when my head hit the pillow, pulling the blanket over me, and hugging my other pillow. Why? The sudden thoughts of loosing people around me, the fear, the grief that it will bring... Had taken over me at that very moment. No its not a silly thought... Not at all. Coming to the reality, realizing that this is just the cycle of life... that one day someone just sitting beside me will just disappear like in the next miliseconds... Stabbed me in the heart. Triggered the fear within me. I know that I just have to be on stand by mode, preparing to accept the fact that someone, no matter if the person is significant to me or not, left this world... eternally. I didn't want that kind of pain again. However, reality is that... no one can stop that pain from coming. It's just the matter of time. I just hope it won't be too soon for the next one... -Jas- p.s. Please don't freak out, people. It's just a sudden thought of reality and.. yeah something else LOL...

Ahh... Finally one decent post? I don't feel like studying the stooooopid business communication now, which has like OH SO FREAKING MANY CHAPTERS. Yeah, procastinate study mode. This is what I get. Seeeeee Jasmine? Seeeee what I told you? How many times I told you NOT to procastinate???? You're just one hopeless human being. I'm so going to have whatever disorders possible here. Enough crapping. I know that whoever's reading this blog, particularly, knows that I have... undoubtedly, many problems. And I never deny that I'm totally care-free. Again, I understand that there are a number of you who wanted to help me. And again, I really do understand how does it feel like when you wanted to help, but the person just somehow refuses to open up to you, and (sort of) rejected your help. How do I know this? Simple. Because I experienced the exact same thing. In the end of the day, you will have to keep this in mind: You've offered your help. However, ultimately the per...

Please do not grant her death wish that she had made almost three years ago. I could understand how she felt after his death; however, please... I want her to stay longer. I know she wanted to go back to your side soon, but please don't let it be too soon. I know you're reading this. Yeah, you who walked out my life so suddenly. You better not invite her to join her too soon, okay? Let her live... just a little bit longer... -Jas-