Sudden blame.
So...
it's my fault that I didn't want to go and end up both of you not going for a trip?
Funny.
When I was young, I asked you to play with me.
You would always say: "I'm busy, go play by yourself!"
You taught me to be independent.
You told me to be independent.
You said to me I should rely on myself more.
Okay.
Now I'm all used to being with myself.
I chose to be with friends instead of you.
Reason?
I feel miserable.
I feel tied up.
I don't feel free.
I feel tired with dramas.
Moreover?
Hello, I'm in the middle of the semester here.
I have assignments to do, too.
I have groups to manage.
I have my own planned activities, too.
Truthfully, do I want to go?
It's a 50/50 answer.
Yet, I feel that it is not my fault.
I should not be blamed.
I should not feel blamed.
I find it funny...
Funny because when I am trying to create my own path and feel adventurous about it, you are trying to pull me back and put me into your arms of protection when I need that so much lesser compared to when I was young - yearning and yearning for it, yet never really have it.
Lesson learnt!
When I have my own kids in the future, I will have sufficient family time with them and never tell them to be independent by themselves in such young age. Involve with them as much as I can when they are young and still need to cling.
Reason: children will learn how to grow and stand on their own way before parents notice it.
That is when letting go is needed - let them fall and get hurt, but assure that we, as parents, are there as their safety dock when appropriate and needed. =)
Is family important?
Yes.
However, I believe... there are some things that needs to be appreciated first before family comes in the picture. =)
-Jas-
it's my fault that I didn't want to go and end up both of you not going for a trip?
Funny.
When I was young, I asked you to play with me.
You would always say: "I'm busy, go play by yourself!"
You taught me to be independent.
You told me to be independent.
You said to me I should rely on myself more.
Okay.
Now I'm all used to being with myself.
I chose to be with friends instead of you.
Reason?
I feel miserable.
I feel tied up.
I don't feel free.
I feel tired with dramas.
Moreover?
Hello, I'm in the middle of the semester here.
I have assignments to do, too.
I have groups to manage.
I have my own planned activities, too.
"So are you guys going for the trip this weekend?"
"No, because you're not going."
"Ah? Cheh~ Just go without me lah~"
"If you're segregating yourself away from us when you're studying right now, then when you're working there's no time for family trip anymore, I tell you."
"......"
"Too bad then, I already said many times that I would be busy whenever semester starts. And you all just have to choose the time when I am not available."
"No, because you're not going."
"Ah? Cheh~ Just go without me lah~"
"If you're segregating yourself away from us when you're studying right now, then when you're working there's no time for family trip anymore, I tell you."
"......"
"Too bad then, I already said many times that I would be busy whenever semester starts. And you all just have to choose the time when I am not available."
Truthfully, do I want to go?
It's a 50/50 answer.
Yet, I feel that it is not my fault.
I should not be blamed.
I should not feel blamed.
I find it funny...
Funny because when I am trying to create my own path and feel adventurous about it, you are trying to pull me back and put me into your arms of protection when I need that so much lesser compared to when I was young - yearning and yearning for it, yet never really have it.
Lesson learnt!
When I have my own kids in the future, I will have sufficient family time with them and never tell them to be independent by themselves in such young age. Involve with them as much as I can when they are young and still need to cling.
Reason: children will learn how to grow and stand on their own way before parents notice it.
That is when letting go is needed - let them fall and get hurt, but assure that we, as parents, are there as their safety dock when appropriate and needed. =)
Is family important?
Yes.
However, I believe... there are some things that needs to be appreciated first before family comes in the picture. =)
-Jas-
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