this is life.

忘了想要在这里留些什么言啊~ *汗* 今早起了床，竟然去弹一弹琴叻~ 话说兴致一来的时候，什么都愿意啊~ *哈哈* 咿？干吗我用中文打字啊？ 兴致嘛~兴致~ *嘻嘻* 别以为本姑娘今早心情好得不得了噢~ 虚假里头，是有几分真实啦…… 对啦，就那么少少心情好啦。 如果更早起床更佳呢！ 就是睡到整个朦朦胧胧了啦…… *空* 花了整整两个小时的时间逗留在中学学姐的部落格。 对，就在浪费时间逃避需要用到脑袋思考的臭功课。 *哭* 可是，发现到学姐的部落格很有趣。 很羡慕*咳妒嫉咳*她到国外留学几个月然后所四处游荡的地方和照片。 还有，她那一篇文章感动了我。 读了再慢慢回忆自己的成长过程……真的是有些遗憾。 哎~命中注定啊~ *叹气* 还有还有！ 本姑娘的ID开始不乖了，老是在捣蛋啊~~~~~~~ 我要我要我要！！！ =3= 败家女啊~ *叹气* -Jas-

人， 没有所谓的 “一时之气”； 只有 累计的忍耐 然后 突然的爆发。 -Jas-

I was taught to be independent since birth, because I had no siblings to lean to. I was taught to be independent since then, because they wanted me to be strong at heart and will. Even so, the more independent I am, the more dependent I am towards others. The more independent I am, the more attachments I form with others. Just because, I did not want to be alone. Just because, I refuse to believe that one day there will be only me, myself in my own world. Forming attachments had become a vital value in me, because I believe that those attachments were always good. Yet, as I grew, I realized it was not always good. Despite the joys I had from those attachments, again, again, and again I got myself hurt. Once. Twice. Multiple times. From time to time, I was haunted by the bruises of the past. Even though I was frightened to be attached to anything or anyone, I found myself falling in continuously. However, I learned. I learned that no matter how strong the attachments are, I will still h...

自私， 有自私的代价。 付出， 有付出的代价。 要自私还是付出？ 没有所谓的对和错。 只有凭良心吧。 -Jas-

" Stress leads to headache leads to fear leads to procrastination leads to more headache and fear leads to more stress. " True or not? Well, at least it applies to me. VERY POSITIVELY CORRELATED in fact. -Jas-

Indeed, it was an interesting day today. Shall I start another list? *laughs* 1. I was stuck in a traffic jam at a usual spot with a rather unusual time to jam; as I was started to feel bored and slightly annoyed with the traffic, I looked at the back mirror which brought me pleasant surprise. Instantly, my brain was like: "Eh? That dude at the back... looked awfully familiar..." *scans dude's face* *screening* *information retrieved* "EH?! ISN'T THAT A FRIEND OF MINE?!" *stares at the mirror longer* "OH MY GOD. IT IS!!!!" *turns back* *waves like a frantic lady* *dude seemed slightly shocked* *waved back reluctantly* I couldn't help but laugh. How often can you actually bump into an old friend on the road , literally ? *phone rings* "Yes, dude, it's me right in front of your car !!" HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAA. Seriously, I thought this incident was the coolest thing ever . 2. For the first time in my entire life, I went to the shoppin...

Today, is truely a day filled with all sorts of incidents. 1. It rained rather heavily early morning, which made me wet even before I enter class. 2. I wore shorts + sandals to class today, resulting me freezing to death in class. 3. I accidentally dropped my lip balm into the toilet, and I can't even flush it away. 4. I attended PSY316 assessment, thesis talk, PSY316 meeting and PSY302 meeting today. 5. I honked a car who wanted to cut into my lane without looking which almost banged me. 6. Mom called me while I was driving my way back, saying: "We need to go to the bank!" 7. Went to the bank, post office and Watsons with my mom. 8. I almost caused an accident while getting out of my car, because I didn't notice a bicycle coming from behind. Thank God he didn't bang into the other car, or me. 9. I got my thesis topic today, and was thrilled to know I got my supervisor. 10. My desktop was being really weird: internet browsers not loading certain sites, entire brow...

This song totally made my day today. xD LOVE LOVE LOVE THIS SONG. LOOOOOOVVVVVEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! Honestly, words can't describe how I'm feeling. HAHA. Enjoy this song as much as I do neh! Click on the play button already! Been So Long by Harmony & Melody (aka JaeJoong and YooChun) Originally by M-flo Now. Tell me you love Mr. Micky Park YooChun's awesome rap!!! xD -Jas- *squeeaaaaaalllllls*

"If she's a pretty girl, I'll be the one who walk over to that table and sit there!" *hysterical laughs in the clique* Well, excuse you mister. I heard those words loud and clear enough. *cough cough* Come on. Be a man , not a bitch. LOL. Thank you for telling your pals that I is not a pretty girl. *cough notlikeIdon'tknowthatmyself cough* Somehow it proved that your pals don't have eyes to see and interpret that? And you, yourself, are desperate searching ingroup identity eh? HAHA. *cheers* -Jas- p.s. OKAY so Jasmine was a little irritated and annoyed being targeted, but all is okay. ^^

Every night, before I go to sleep, I will say my prayers to God. I pray, for myself; and for the people close to me. However, the list had shortened. A significant person was no longer there for me to say my prayers. I miss you, great grandpa. -Jas-

Here's a short snippet of a conversation that happened just a few minutes ago. "Baby, which one do you like? Lotus paste with one egg yolk or two egg yolks?" *In a very impossible-to-hear soft voice* "I - " *interrupted* "She likes the one with one egg yolk." "Oh no! I bought the one with two egg yolks! Never mind la~ Give to youngest aunt la~" "......" *self monolog* As long as got egg yolk I like one lo... *went upstairs* So much for my parents to call me baby or darling . =__=" -Jas-

When melody is accompanied by harmony, they both create wonderful colors that brightens up the world. Exactly what I needed after weeks of dull moments and difficult dilemmas. ***** When JaeJoong is the melody, and YooChun is the harmony, together they created colors. Proven that they will be together side by side, through hardships and happy moments. Soulmates for eternity! *hearts* -Jas-

After a day of fun and laughter, reality came in to play its role again. I will be away for the first week of the semester, going back to my mom's hometown for one week. Yes. Emergency. Miss me? ^^ -Jas-

老年还同啊~ 以前小时候的我，还真的有点自闭。 今天开始，我要那个拥有“自闭症”的我回来。 -Jas-

It's been quite a while ever since I had a nightmare that literally made me feeling extremely uncomfortable during my sleep, and nontheless, scared. The nightmare was very very realistic. To top off the icing on the cake, the nightmare involved a very close friend of mine. I was literally freaked out in (and out) of the dream. Try imagine I was grabbing two knives fighting with a guy who's going to kidnap either or kill and/or rape my friend right in front of me, and literally in front of me. They were ridiculously so damn close in front, I tell you. = =" The most devastating thing was I wasn't able to help my friend because the bastard threatened to slash her right in front of my eyes. So, she got dragged away by the guy. Oh, did I mention, the guy appears to be BALD? = =" So anyway, I (made myself) to wake up because I was feeling extremely uncomfortable physically due to the dream. And... apparently my "plan to rescue my friend" did not appear becaus...

有时真的很讨厌漫长的假期。 很讨厌。 因为每天在家，整天给人点来点去。 是也讲，不是也说。 有做， 点 。 没做， 讲。 烦死。 要出去的时候又要报告， 又要这样又要那样， 有时还要被逼听圣经。 烦死。 烦死烦死烦死烦死烦死烦死烦死！！！！！ 你们出去回来又不见得向我报告啦？！ 你们把东西这边丢那边扔我还懒得管！ 干吗老是管我酱多啦？！ 要你们管我的时候就说：你长大了，要自己顾自己，不要老是等人家帮你。 不要你们管我的时候就绑手绑脚，叽里呱啦的。 屁一堆。 言语无法形容我现在快要窒息的心情。 烦死。 啊！！！ 送我弟弟妹妹啦！ 让我折磨一下他们，还有让他们来分担一下也好啦！！ 你们两个还真的死得早。 好坏啊你们，让姐姐我从小到大就酱一个人。 你们在哪边还有彼此作伴叻。 烦啊！！ -Jas-

今天的我，称不上被骂。 可是，被温柔的提醒。 态度上，大大的问题。 其实…… 自己也不是没察觉到。 老实说…… 真的有点不知道如何去改善。 可能，真的有点需要所谓的“距离才会拉近彼此的关系”吧…… *打脑* 我知道了。 虽然我静静没出声。 对不起。 我…… 我会反省，慢慢的改。 然后，真的需要多点忍耐。 还有，需要更多的成熟和理解。 再加上，多一点的角度去逼自己去体会。 -Jas-

I felt that I haven't blog anything since forever. LOL. But, compared to my other fellow blogmates... I update myself a lot here. *boo you losers! xD* I couldn't think up of a title... since it's kind of a random but... not exactly a random thing. Okay nevermind. Why do I have to spend so much time crapping everytime I want to post something? Yesterday, an old friend of mine came to my place to take his stuffs and, well, we had our usual chit-chat again. As always, I just realized that we always talk about the same or similar issues everytime we met. Probably... the "target" is different. HAHA. However, even though we do always talk about the similar issues everytime we met, somehow it gives me more realizations and reminders throughout the conversation. If you're ever reading this man, don't be too proud of yourself. You're still lying very safely in my *cough* you-know-what list . HAHA. It's rather funny how we often will talk about the past, and...

I kept having the same questions repeating itself again and again in my head. Why am I still not over with it yet? Why am I doing this? What are all these for? What do I want from this? Etc. Etc. Etc. It's no longer love. It's a burden. -Jas-

If you don't want to read a pure angry and childish post, I suggest you to ignore this for good. Waking up in a bad and frustrated mood is definitely not a good and healthy way to start my day. Yes. I'm feeling like a totally big ass bitch at the moment. Because there were some things I seriously cannot understand. Come on! When I'm sick, and I want to sleep at night, and in fact I am already half asleep every time you go into my room to check on me. FINE. I don't mind you checking on me since it's a graditute of showing care. BUT do you need to ask me questions at that moment when I'm trying hard to actually to get into my REM sleep? THEN when I throw my fit, you started to lecture me all over again and said my bad temper behavior. WTF?? When YOU'RE having your naps or sleeps, do I even purposely wake you up to ask you questions? Unless it's like super urgent or important or you seriously slept like... hello it's time to seriously wake up already ...