234.

Random much?

This is my 234th post.
Wow.

Thinking back, there were times I relied on this blog very much.
There were also times that I completely abandoned this sanctuary of mine.

However, in the end I chose to come back and form an attachment.
Because "this is life" is a vital part of me, for me.

*****

Rush of feelings.
It came back to me recently.

The desires.
The hidden secrets.
The greed.

Though, the same questions came back to me.
How much am I capable?
How much can I afford?

The doubts.
Ah, yes.

Welcome back.

******

So many things I need to do.
So many things I want to do.
So many things I wish to do.

But...
I don't know how.

-Jas-

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