this is life.

...have particularly, mainly ONE thing in their brain. Not studies, not curricular activities, not scholarships, not universities, not their future... Apparently not almost everything that a teenager should be concerned about. However, they are sooooo excited and pay more of their attention on one thing that probably everyone in this whole wide world are searching for: LOVE. Well, I'm not saying that it is something wrong to think or to do during teenage years. But, hey people! There are so much more interesting things outside your little cell!! Seriously!! So... WAKE UP and OPEN YOUR EYES WIDELY and SEE things PROPERLY!!! Yes, undeniably, love is a thing that everyone's curious about. Not really a thing, erm.. Maybe a feeling? Dunno~ Don't ask me. Love is something that everyone wanted to experience, because it is so called "sweet" and "memorable" and... Whatever wonderful words you can link it with love. Come on people... If you don't find or haven...

What type of chocolate you like to eat? Sweet, milky chocolate? Milk chocolate with hazel nut? Or with blueberry and raisins in it? Or dark chocolate, which has the bitterness in it? Hmm... What other chocolates still available for you to choose? A whole lot more; however I will only take two chocolates out of the list, which are: sweet, milky chocolate and dark bitter chocolate. Between this two, which one will you choose? I would much prefer the dark, bitter type of chocolate, didn't really like those really sweet ones, until it can literally "burn" my tongue and throat. Dark chocolate has this very unique kind of taste, I assume there's some alcohol in it? Yumm!! Hehe... It might started off as a little bit of sweetness (or bitterness, whatever-la), the longer it gets, the more bitter it is until a certain extent, there will be this fragrance around (as in inside) your mouth. That, catches my breath and melts my heart away. It's like life, there's no such t...

Now I found out what is maturity. Only part of it though. Maturity, is when a person can think about the pros and cons before they are doing something. A person who is mature, will think in as many perspective as possible before an action. He/she will think what is the worst consequences, and also the good side of the action. He/she will be prepared when their action failed. They are prepared to accept the results and pay their responsibilities for their action, as they have already for seen the negative outcome. People nowadays are just lack of maturity. They do what ever comes out of their pea brain. Without thinking properly what are the worst consequences they will bring to themselves, or worse still, to others. Their thinking is like a tree without any brances and leaves. They only have one tree trunk; they only think straight, talk straight, even their actions are straight. Straight as in doing, saying and thinking without deep thoughts, not as in doing something good or as in se...

How am I feeling currently? Confused Why is it I'm feeling such a way? Unknown. Undefined. Why?? My heart is somehow messed up with many things around. What the hell I'm blogging about? My confusion about my confusion. What do I wanna do now? Just blog something that others don't understand. Why did I do such thing? Just to be mysterious in a way. Make people having question marks all over their heads. How am I feeling right now? Feeling that something's not right. Ooh... I'm in love?? That's the problem? I'm NOT. And I'm being frank. Why? Wondering can I actually find my true.... love? LOL I'm in a dilemma about love? Nope. I am enjoying being single actually. :) I have no worries being not loved. Why? Because I have my friends that love me, most of all I have my parents to love me! Does that mean that...... No. It doesn't mean that THAT. Wait... my confusion is about love? Itsy bitsy teeny weeny part of my confusion, so... it's a yes. Then?...

I'm in the middle of doing my assignment here!! But here I am... Wanting to post a... blog?? LOL Didn't know what had got into me... Just feel like blogging.. Feel like saying something... For no particular reason, I suppose... Heh~ Yes I'm crapping~ Leave me alone~~ Shoes... It suddenly just came into my mind... Similar to my "Ring" post, through some objects I saw something that relates to life itself. Crazy? Insane? Naaah... It's just a sudden sight. So I went shopping with my mom a few days ago, trying to look for a new pair of shoes for myself. Well yeah.. You have to see and choose and try... Bla bla bla... Mom helped me out by choosing some shoes that she thinks that suits me. However, there are some shoes that she chose I didn't like it because I don't think looked nice and automatically it gives me the image in my brain how it will look like when it's on my feet. I told her that I didn't want to try those shoes that didn't catch my...

Recently, my mom gave me a ring. I am a girl, who dislikes wearing a ring on my finger because I feel that it somehow disturbs me when I'm doing things. But since my mom gave me her ring that was previously given to her by my father I wore it. From dislike to wear rings on my fingers, now I'm attached to the ring. I will feel weird when I don't have the ring on my finger. It has been a part of me already. However, this is not the main thing I want to mention here. Yea, I was crapping... Haha... When I just wore the ring for a couple of days, there's one night, my mom came into my room to have a chat with me. She saw my finger with the ring she gave me, she commented:" Hey, your hand looked nice with the ring on it." I answered:" Duh, maa~ I know my hands are really ugly. And wearing a ring doesn't 'make' my hand looked any better." Then she laughed. At first I didn't think about anything much for what I've said. It just came to my...

Can't believe I'm posting the third post... no.. forth post actually(!) today~!! Nothing much to mention... I happened to close the window right beside my computer while I was watching movies online. Now I am going to take bath... Before that, I've opened the window which was closed and curtains were pulled together, hiding the beauty outiside. I had this special feeling when I saw today's sky... It was very beautiful... It's a mixture of blue, purple, orange and red... Words cannot describe what I'm seeing... It took my breath away when I see the multi-coloured sky. It is seldom to see such a nice scenery... Especially with the heavy haze recently... I really appreciate it. The sky made me feel relieved... In a special way... -Jas-

The very last bit~~ Life's 25 Toughest Questions- Answered By Jeanne Marie Laskas MONEY & OTHER HEADACHES 19. Does money really buy happiness? # No. Because happiness isn't for sale. Many People get tripped up by this one, amassing wealth only to find themselves cycling into a bottomless pit of unsatisfiable yearning. Turns out, joy and misery are not that far apart when it comes to very big wads of cash. Consider the case of a Kentucky couple who won $34 million in 2000. Thilled to be released from the demans of their boring old jobs, they frittered their fortune away on fancy cars, mansions, all the usual stuff - losing everything that mattered in the process. They divorced, he died of an alcohol-related illness. and she died alone in her new house just five years after cashing the winning ticket. When it comes to happiness, only people you love, and who love you, can bring it. If you have enough dough to buy yourself a luxurious yacht, but no real friends to sail with, y...

Continued...... Life's 25 Toughest Questions- Answered By Jeanne Marie Laskas FAMILIES & FEUDS 11. Can a man and a woman ever just be friends? # For a short time perhaps. Making the friendship last requires that you find each other at least vaguely repulsive. Good luck! 12. When do you take away Grandpa's car keys? # The American Medical Association says safe driving has more to do with functional ability than age. True, seniors are more at risk for reduced vision, hearing loss and impairments associated with arthritis - but all fo these conditions depend on the individual. (However, it's mandatory in Singapore and Hong Kong for drivers older than 65 and 70, respectively, to undergo a medical test.) So when it seems to you that Pop is becoming a danger to himself and to others, tell him straight. Point out that his reactions have slowed or his judgment is losing its edge. Suggest he not drive anymore. Be firm, but at the same time, don't treat him like a child. Allo...

This is an article I read. Hehe... Maybe some of you guys know where I took this from~ Anyway, I just wanna post it here to let those who visit this page to see it~ Enjoy~ Life's 25 Toughest Questions- Answered By Jeanne Marie Laskas LOVE & MARRIAGE 1. Can love really last a lifetime? # Absolutely - but only if you chuck the fairy tale of living happily ever after. A team of scientists recently found that romantic love involves chemical changes in the brain that last 8-12 months. After that, you and your partner are on your own. Relationship requires maintenance. Pay a visit to a nursing home if you want to see proof of lasting love. Recently I spoke to a man whose wife of 60 years suffered from advanced Alzheimer's disease. He came to sit with her everyday and hold her hand. "She's been my best friend since high school," he told me. "We made a promise to stick together.: Now, that's a love story. 2. Why do married falks begin to look like one another...

...how you actually look like? Confused? What I mean is, do you really know how is your face look like in reality? Do you really REALLY know? Why the hell I come up with this question huh? Suddenly I just came across this... Everytime, I look at the mirror, I know, I am looking myself. But when I went to different places, with a different mirror, I look into it, I still see my image in the mirror, but it looked different! So, I would start thinking... Which face in those mirrors that I looked into, is the real face of mine?? I wondered have anyone noticed this... When you're in a different place, with a different mirror, and you look into it, you'll see a slightly different face... Although you know that it is still you. Well, I know some of you will think like :" Hey.. It's just physics!! The reflection of the light... The the... Dunno what of the mirror... Makes you looked different!". I know, I know... Still, have you thought about it? Some mirrors made you lo...

I came across a comic today. In the comic the character said that it can't decide which is worse having no money or having no friends. What do you think? I suppose the answer is pretty obvious. So, what say you?? Money? Friends? Which is worse when you're not having one of it? My answer is: friends. This doesn't mean that having no money at all is no big deal. It IS a big deal for not having a single penny in your pocket. However, I know humans can survive without money, but it is very VERY hard. Thank to God, that He created us with hands and legs. These are actually the "machine", the "tools" for us to survive. I didn't really think God created money, we humans are the ones who created money to let our lives easier. That's why I said, we can survive without money, but it's hard. Now, what's with friends? Ok... Let me ask you, can you live your whole life WITHOUT a single friend? (No family is under consideration, just assume that you...

What triggers me to post another "love" topic ehh? Haha... The answer is Japanese Anime... Oh~ First of all, sorry for those who keep on visit my page... And found out there are no updates.. Sorry~~ Didn't have the mood to post anything.. Even this very minute, I forced myself to blog.. Haha~ Back to the main topic... Ok, so Japanese Anime triggered me to post a "love" topic. Why? Hmm... It lets me wonder whether is there such a beautiful love story in real life. It touches the very depth of my heart whenever I watch Jap. Ani.. I gives me that kind of shiver in my heart... Let me felt like, wow.... Ain't that nice if that's for real? However, imagination, fatasy, animation, are just abstract... Unreal... FAKE... It will not happen in us, human beings', life. Maybe it does happen in someone else's life... But I'm sure not even one out of ten get to experience such innocent, pure, sweet, everlasting (perhaps) love in their lives. I'm impres...

Just dropped by to one of my friend's "main-blog". (Yeah, clearly it's you I'm talking about lar~~ if you're reading this!!! :p) He posted a blog that's about his "old" self. Well, I'm impressed! Thank you! You made me feel that I'm not the only one with really bad personality!! Kaaka~~ Thanks to you again, my friend, for reminding me what title I wanted to post... Here! What about me? Well, didn't know! I believe that everyone have all those positive and negative traits (LOL.. reminds me of SOMETHING here!!). And I mean ALL. The only thing that made us all different is not because we have different positive and negative side, it's because the scale for each positive and negative traits. Well, for instance, everyone have their.. Let's say, jealousy side. Maybe from the circle of social that you've seen, there are some that you may say that they don't have such streak. Naaah.... Everyone have it! It's just the matte...

Hmm... I have been thinking of putting up this particular topic since... A few weeks ago I think? Haha~~ Well, didn't really like to touch about this topic though, since one of my friends supported me to put this topic so... Haha.. Why not? I'm pretty sure there's going to have part 2,3... Well, depends how many things or any other related things that I can mention! Before I start, I just want to say that I have no offence with any of the couples out there ya~~ Just in case I mentioned anything that's sensitive... Keke~ PEACE!! Okay... Erm...?? Ooh~ Nowadays, they're like many many ( and I mean really many) of the couples out there are aged betweeen... Can't really tell... 15-17 perhaps? Some of them are couples since secondary until... University? Or even get married I suppose!! Well, it isn't that I don't support this love thingy during secondary, or to be more spesific, during education period (is that how they say??). There's just these questions...

Haha... No... I'm not talking about the movie "The Mask" starred Jim Carrey... But something similiar which involves in our real lives, and everyone has it. Yes, EVERYONE has their own different kinds of masks. Everyone's masks have different kinds of development. What the hell am I saying? Haha... Well, we're not borned with masks since birth... We develop our own masks. Different people, replicate their masks differently. When we're still in a very young age, we don't have any masks on our face. As we grow older, different masks are created or preferably called "wore" on our faces. Some just keep on changing their masks as time passes by, some just made their masks thicker. Ooh.. Sorry... What do I mean by masks? For definate, it's not the mask that we buy out there and actually wear them. No. These masks are actually created by ourselves, to protect ourselves from others or to hide our true selves from the world. Masks actually mean one...

Probably those who have siblings think that, or maybe hoped that they are the only child. So that they got all the attention from their parents, they can have anything they want, it's like they can have the whole world. They may think those who are the only golden child in the house is a spoilt brat, he/she don't know anything about house work, he/she don't know anything about life's difficulty... And others stuff that can relate in your mind... Let me tell you the truth, being the only child is not a fun thing. Not all the time. How do I know? Well, like you would guess, I AM the only child in my family. Well, yes. Being the only child do have the fun part, like you don't have to share things with your siblings... You don't have to get into a quarrel with your siblings and probably you're the one to be blamed... You KIND OF get everything you want, but not everything. You got all the attention from your parents. They give you FULL 100% of love, as you don...

Life, is it fair, or not? Well, supposingly, 11 out of 10 will say :" Life is SO unfair!" Well, yeah, nothing's fair in this world for sure. But, it is sort of balanced in some ways. How? You see it everday in your real life, and also, in the television. What the hell am I talking about? Haaha~~ I'm kinda lost, not sure what I want to say! So erm... Ok, like I was saying life is some sort of "fair" or, the better word "balanced" in some ways. What ways? Lets see, we have poor people and rich people right? Just ignore those in between-lar~~ Ok.. Poor people, they have no money, or they only have enough money for part of the family. But, although they are poor, but they live an easy going, happy life. Although not all poor citizens are happy with their lives, because they think that, they dont' have money, they don't have enough to live. Their needs and wishes aren't fulfilled. They wish they could be rich, as they think that money can so...

Ok, I know I've been putting up blogs that are related to... Deaths... Births.... Lives... And yeah, God(s).... Haha... Well, it IS part of life! That's why I'm mentioning all those here... Kaaka~ I will try to put other topics that are related to my "this is life" slogan... But, apparently, these topics that I've blog these days, just came up in my mind... And no other YET... So... Haha.. Just wait and see! Gee... What I'm going to say about God this time? Nothing much-lah... I'm sure, that in everyone's heart have different beliefs... For instance, believe in differnt kinds of God(s). Ok, let me get this straight. I KNOW, that the word "God" is meant for Christianity. But in HERE, God means ALL Gods... No matter is Buddhism, Taoism, Islamic, Hinduism... Whatever -ism lar~ And some of the... Uhh... Aiks.. Dunno what's the word... Ahh!! Religion(I guess..)!! Yeah, so, some of the religion, said in their own mantera or bible or whateve...

Before I start to mention anything, I just wanted to give you guys some sort of a preparation. Why? As you can see my title is about "hatred" so, it won't be any much fun things in here... If you're ready to enter my world of hatred.. Well, read on. I just woke up for like, half an hour ago... The first thing in my mind while I'm still half asleep and half awake, is that: I have to blog.. I have to blog this.... So here I am... What made me want to blog sooooo badly? Ahhh... Talking about sleep, there must be dreams! Yeah... I dreamt right before I'm going to wake up. What dream? Wouldn't be appropriate to mention it here though... As far as i can say, it is about my hatred towards SOME of the people in my life. For those who are really close to me, they'll know what I'm talking about.. I suppose! For those who don't know what I'm talking about, sorry, if you ask me any questions regarding this topic, I won't tell you anything, apparent...