this is life.

Honestly, I so feel like blogging so many times within these two weeks. BUT, I just can't. Why? Because I'm at my maternal grandparents' house, using my bro's computer WHICH kept lagging and freaking slow and the connection was... it was okay actually. LOL. And, I'm not at home almost everyday. AND, there's no wireless network here. *grumbles* Which means I cannot use my laptop to go online! But I still use it to do... other stuffs. Teehee, shall Jasmine update you guys what she had been up to for the past week? *smiles* - shopping, shopping AND shopping. (My luggage is seriously OVERLOADED already!! T-T Damn. The money I have to pay...) - visiting her relatives. - traveled to some place nearby. - being overdosed by Super Junior stuff. - babysitting my little sister. - IGNORING my little sister when she's really annoying. (lol.) - wrote two prologues for two new stories. (go on, call me crazy.) - wrote some chapters, too. (yeap, go on.) - FINALLY finished ...

Hokay I'm typing this at the airport! Yes I brought my dear lappie along with me. xD How could I leave it alone so lonely back in my house? Me lappie, me soulmate. *cough* (Because I can stare YooChun as much as I wanted with me lappie. xD) So just a quick note. Merry Christmas and happy new year in advance to you all yeah! And most of all, miss me okays?! I hadn't talk to you guys in AGES since the holiday starts. *my bad my bad* But anyway, I'll miss you guys heaps! I will still go online when I get to... somewhere. LOL. The thing is that it's quite troublesome to online at my maternal grandparents' house. Besides... there's no wireless modem. It's a dial up connection. So, go figure. Haha. Okay! Leaving now~ ^^ -Jas-

I should be sleeping by this hour, but I will have to post this up before I leave tomorrow. Finally, I shall just present you: a continuation of " content happiness ". 22nd November 2008 "D-day!" I woke up pretty much later than my usual time - 9a.m.+ and if I'm not mistaken Miss M *cough* woke up around the same time as I did! I reached for my cell phone and my eyes was going to pop out when I saw the number of messages sent to me. Thank you peeps! *smiles* Soon everyone else was up and had this really huge breakfast that my mom (and I) prepared for the lot. *cough* Anyway, nothing much has happened during the day as everyone's busy with their assignments, or entertainment and such. Yes... everyone was pretty much bored! *sorry lah guys, my house has nothing much for you to do* Lucky thing was I have wireless connection, so my house had instantly became a cybercafe! LOL! Later in the afternoon, near evening, everyone got themselves dressed up and such and t...

Finally, I get to officially scream FREEDOM after this semester's torturous stress loads. Every thing's over! Well at least for my Second year, first semester life! No more assignments, no more experiments, no more presentations, NO MORE EXAMS! But heck... this just shows how fast time passes by. I am graduating, really really soon. (Okay I know i have like more than 1 and a half year to go but what the hell.) I'm not sure if I'm ready to seriously face the world alone till then. I'm so going to miss being a student... hopefully I'll get grades that are good enough to get me for further studies... or else my dream will be vanished in a blink of an eye! I couldn't describe how thrilled I am that holiday's here! Even though it's one really short holiday... But honestly I wouldn't want a long one or else I'll be really dreadfully slumbering in the start of a new semester. Dang torturous. Oh well. Planning, planning AND planning! I felt glad that...

It seriously does. Its been killing my appitite for quite a few weeks now; and I haven't get it back yet. My god. I miss my larger appitite after I got back from USA. Now it's even worse than my old small appitite! Its A LOT SMALLER . *sobs* It kills my mood, totally. I got so freaking sensitive to the point of riddiculusness. I aplogize for my mood swings, my dear friends. *bows* I admit I can be really scary normally when I'm normal; but I'm much insanely scarier when I'm on my mood swing periods. LOL. Sorry peeps~ Didn't mean to scare you guys off. It also ultimately, kills my health. Even sleeping for TEN frigging hours still make me sleepy after waking up. I'm barely fresh and awake if I slept for five hours. Gosh. Imagine I can seriously fall asleep in the middle of the exam?? My God. This is my first time ever in my life that I literally consider should I take a short nap DURING the exam. *cough* This is creepy. It's not like I don't get quali...

I suddenly realized why you would say those words to me that day. I suddenly realized the reason why you asked me the questions. It's because you felt guilty. I forgive you. But, at the same time, I can't. I believe in trust and promises. You broke them. -Jas-

I have absolutely NO idea how to expect for this semester's results. Oh. My. GOD. Pleeeeeeeaaaaase... T-T I have a really really bad feeling... And this is no good. URGH! I don't want to... *censor word* OR even *censor word* ANY of the subjects. AAAHHH!! *SCREEEAAAAAAAAAAM* Three more subjects to go... I have NOTHING in my brain for the other two subjects. MY GOD. No more panic attacks please... T-T Mercy please, MERCY! I promise I'll be a good girl next semester and study real hard! T-T AND also practice my piano to freaking pass the stupid practical exam... T-T -Jas-

... of sharing. *smirk* I couldn't tell how happy I am, sharing the dong bang dorkiness with two of my besties from highschool. xD -Jas-

什么东西。 人家没有，我再次重复， 没有乱花钱 。 就算你们每个月给我的钱有省很多，我都有收着！ 我没有乱花钱啦，好不好？！？！ 就算你们认为我剩下的钱应该比你们预料的多，事实上是比较少。 可是，不代表我把钱当纸一样烧啦！！！！！ 你们乱花钱的记录比我多很多好不好？！？！ 人家需要买什么重要的，什么什么的都没有向你们讨多一点，就自己省下来的来买的！！ 又是你们自己说有多自己收，转个头就问干吗不用剩下的那笔钱来补这个那个。 然后，用掉了，就倒过来问人家：干吗不省钱？ 去！！！！！！！ 算了。 反正什么鬼东西都是你们对，我永远永远都是错。 -Jas-

I observe the littlest things that others tend to ignore or don't even notice about it. Not to say others, but those who did the littlest actions themselves did not pay attention to it. Beware. Because the littlest things that you say or do inflicts the true you that you are trying to hide from others. Maybe others don't know about it. But I know. And, I am not joking. This is why, sometimes I would say: human beings are such disappointing creatures. True colours were shown. Yes. True colours. -Jas-

... 你越想得到，却更加不容易得到。 ... 你越执着去夺取，就更容易失去。 ... 一开始都不是你的，不管你多么努力想尽办法得到它。 所以，有时候要懂得如何去放手。 最少，也要懂得慢慢放松。 也许会伤，会痛； 可是长痛不如短痛。 伤口复原了也许会留下丑陋的疤痕。 有时候，也许会隐隐作痛。 可是，要提醒自己：一切已成为历史。 疤痕，为了提醒自己不要再同样的再次受伤、留下疤痕。 作痛，为了提醒自己不要再重复曾经受伤的感觉。 -Jas-

If you are a NOT TVXQ! fan, I do not recommend you to watch this youtube. *SQQQQQQUUUUEEEEAAAAAAAAAALLLLL* OOHHH MYYYY GAAAAWWWWDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!! xDDDDDDDDDD I COULDN'T STOP SQUEALING WATCHING THIS!!!!! xDDDDDDD YooChunnie don't be scared~~~ mweee shall protect you even though I'm a lot shorter than you... xDDDDD AHAHAHAHHHHAAAAA!!!! MY GOD!!!! CHANGMIN I TOTALLY LOVE YOU IN THIS VIDEO!!!!! CHEONGMAL KIUBTA!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xDDDDDDDDDDDDD -Jas- p.s. *SSSSSSQQQQQQUUUUEEEAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLL* xDDDDDDDDDD

Hehe I was tagged by both Esther AND Ikyang (pervie butt xD) quite some time ago... So here I am fulfilling you girlies' wishes! LOL! Esther's tag. 1. Person who tagged you is? - Esther! 2. Your relationship with her? - Teehee she's me forum friend~ xD 3. Five impressions of her? - A girl - One of the many "esther"s I know in the forum xDD - sweeeeeet - cute xD - a changminnie fan hehehehe~ 4. The most memorable thing she has done for you? - Hmm... I'd say reading my fanfics xD 5. Most memorable thing she has said to you? - Ahhhh that she loves me stories xD 6. If she becomes your lover, you will? - I'd give her Changmin, lol! 7. If she becomes your lover, thing she has to improve on would be? - Only yoochunnie will be me lover, and changminnie will be her lover! xD 8. If they become your enemy, you will?? - they? O__O 9. What is it you want to tell her now? - me miss chu~ xD 10. Your overall impression on her is? - a sweeeet little girl 11. How do you th...

It really did. I had never thought that I would see such a fascinating miracle in my life. Life is full of surprises... and miracles. The sky is smiling. Hopefully everything will have a better turn for me, and for the rest of the people. :) -Jas-

They said that Murphy's Law do exist and eventually it will happen to us. I never paid attention much to a series of good or bad luck in my life. However, this time... the series of the so-called "bad luck" was so overwhelming that it struck me. It struck me, real hard. I had never thought that so much can happen to me in ONE day; counting out other stuffs that happened to me for the past month(s). You may ask: "Are you sure that your luck is that bad?" My answer to you will be: "You are not, and will never be in my shoes; you will never know." I indeed had learned quite a few lessons after the bad lucks for the past months since September. However, on that day itself, I had learned so much, too much that I lost faith in human beings. Particularly, MEN. I became so desperate that I really really do want to change myself after it . Aside from that, I became desperate to find myself a protector. I felt so weak and helpless. I did not disclose it to man...

I could NOT get enough of the song. Don't say goodbye, don't leave me now. Cause you are my everything to me. - dong bang shin ki, Mirotic C version: Don't say goodbye I listened to it over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and over (it goes on forever, seriously) again, and again, and again, and again, and again (again, it goes on forever). Don't ask me how many times I listen to it each time I turned on my WMP, or how many times I listened to it in a day... I seriously could not tell. I would just tune into it, sit there and stone. And then? Let my tear flows freely whenever the emotions are there. I couldn't remember when was the last time I got SO addicted to a particular song, as well as the emotions that it brought along with the melody. Lovely song, lovely melody, lovely lyrics, lovely emotions, lovely voices. -Jas-

D O O M E D . omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg... -Jas-

现在，已经是第三次了…… 两次因为…… 另外的一次因为…… 原来那个感觉是如此的。 我理解了。 很难受。 非常难受。 本以为可以把自己从深洞里拔出来，原来啊，原来太高估自己的能力了。 重复，又重复，再重复。 没办法了，只好一直往下掉…… 原本的……已被……代替。 我想这一刻起的我，不是原本的我了。 -Jas-

눈 맞추지 못하는 그댈 읽을 수 없죠 길을 잃어버린 아이 같아서 기다리고만 있죠 어떤 말을 할건지 사실 난 알고 있죠 진심이 아닌걸 눈치 챈걸요 눈물이 말하잖아요 Don't Say Goodbye 그 손을 놓지 말라는 마음이 들려요 그대 맘이 들려요 아직 나만을 원하죠 그댄 숨길 수 없죠 그댄 거짓말을 못하죠 허락할 수 없어요 헤어지잔 거짓말 눈을 보고 말해봐요 아니잖아요 진심 아니잖아요 Don't Say Goodbye 그 손을 놓지 말라는 마음이 들려요 그대 맘이 들려요 세상이 등 돌려도 힘든 사랑이라도 You are my love, you are my soul Don't Say Goodbye don't leave me now oh~ 함께 나눈 약속이 내겐 전부인걸요 Don't Say Goodbye You are my everything to me 지친 내 하루는 항상 그댈 찾겠죠 마르지 않는 샘처럼 그댈 사랑할께요 You are my love, you are my soul Don't say good bye you are the only one for me 없었던 일처럼 오늘이 또 지나면 서로 맘을 놓지 않고 모두 이겨내겠죠 Cause you are my everything to me Cause you are my everything to me (credits: DBSKer archives ) -Jas-

You see a mushroom. A small, round mushroom. You find the mushroom cute. You poked it gently with your finger, and smiled. You observed the mushroom a little longer. The colours wrapped around the little round mushroom was sweet and attractive. You plucked the mushroom out of its roots. You decided to keep it in your pocket, safe and sound until you reach home. You smiled with the thought of finding such a nice, cute mushroom after searching in the woods for a long time. You took the mushroom out from your pocket as you sat down on your cozy couch. You stared at the mushroom with a silly grin on your face, thinking how lucky you are to find such a rare object. You breathed in the sweet scent of the mushroom. You felt delighted. How sweet would it taste? You wondered. You bit the mushroom as it melts in your mouth. And then, you swallowed it. You realized that it was not as tasty as it smelled. After a few minutes, you felt your heart was in pain. The mushroom was poisonous. However, it...